Schools back!

So I'm taking 9 hours this semester, working full time and trying to keep my boys under control while dad is out of town. I think about doing housework but at the end of the day, it just has to go on the back burner. The weekends are full of lacrosse, studying and in the next month or so, a lot of wedding related events. I love being in school and learning new things so I have to just press on. I wish I had the money for a maid!

Dreams

I have the strangest dreams. It's something that runs in the family because my mom has the same thing. They are usually very vivid, active dreams that leave me waking up full of whatever emotion was most prevalent in the dream. My favorite thing is to wake up laughing because the dream was so outlandish that, even though I'm sleeping I know that I'm dreaming. I know it sounds weird but it happens.

Last night I dreamed about my brother's rehearsal for his wedding. It went something like this....we were at the rehearsal (which was in some kind of a field, with a stage) and we were standing on the altar waiting for everything to get started. My cousin, who is a couple of years younger than me, started putting the moves on me right in front of my husband. I froze out of sheer disgust but he just kept on trying to hug and kiss on me (in a gross cousin way). Then as the rehearsal was wrapping up, my ex-boyfriend showed up. I got really nervous but avoided speaking to him somehow. I don't know why he would be there but....it's a dream, stranger things have happened! Everyone was riding around the field in our go-cart and taking turns swapping off on it. Then people started passing out because they were drunk and we found out that my ex-boyfriend was giving everyone that was drinking a sleeping pill to go along with it so they would pass out and he could rob them. Some of the guys that were at the rehearsal heard about it and were trying to grab him but he was running around avoiding being caught. Then I escaped with another bridesmaid and as I was running away, I looked down at my cell phone and noticed that my saved phone numbers were all being deleted one by one. I jumped into a waiting truck (like a moving truck) and realized that the battery was dead. We freaked out because we were trying to get away so we asked people on the street for jumper cables. One man came up to me with a pair of forceps and said that you can jump the truck with those. All I remember was thinking he was crazy because you'd shock yourself with forceps on a battery. Then I turned around and saw some kids playing chinese jump rope with a set of jumper cables so I grabbed them. That was it! My alarm went off and I never knew if we got away or not....from the crazy boyfriend with the sleeping pills!!????

I love having an active dream world. It's so interesting how your brain can conjure up stories and scenarios that make absolutely no sense yet strike up so much emotion. If anything, it's fun to get a good laugh!

Wooo Hooo!

Way to go LSU on winning the BCS championship! What a great season!

Put em up...Put em up

The hubby's on his way home from his business trip and he has conveniently dropped the discussion about the sleaze. Sometimes I'm just in the mood to fight so I'd bring something up just to get a rise out of him. I am typically very easy to get along with and I will avoid a fight at all costs but, NOT WHEN I'M RIGHT!!! You can't just ignore it and let him go on thinking everything is ok, right? I'll be nice, I promise ;)

Frustrated

My husband is out of town on a business trip. He called tonight letting me know he'll be eating at my favorite restaurant tonight....with his sleazy employee. I was so mad because we were just talking about going there last weekend but he said he didn't want to go and spend that kind of money. Now he's there with her. The single, big breasted, sleeps with married men sleaze bag. He knows for a fact that she is sleeping with another employee who is married with children.

It's not that I don't trust my husband. I don't trust her. Maybe I'm slightly jealous because I don't like the thought of my husband eating dinner alone with another woman. Especially when he barely takes me out alone. Am I being silly? My mom told me to get over it, that he would never do anything. But, if the shoe was on the other foot, he'd have a cow don't you think?

Tough day...

My youngest son is funny. Very funny. But not always at appropriate times. Lately, I've noticed a downward trend in his grades and went to talk to his teachers about what is going on. His math teacher pretty much dominated the conversation and was saying how silly and disruptive he is being. She made a big deal about him doodling on his papers and basically making jokes. I told the teachers to threaten him that they would call my husband if they found it necessary. About 45 minutes before school ended, his math teacher came to the classroom I was working in and asked me to talk to her. She said that, "our plan backfired. I threatened to call dad and he said that it wouldn't do any good". As pissed as I am about him smart mouthing the teacher, I have not liked her since the first time I have met her. She's a first time teacher and has a crappy attitude. I have been so stressed out about his grades and behavior all day and hope that he will get his little personality under control while he's in school. I've never had to deal with behavior issues in school before. I think it makes it harder since I work there. Now I just have to get the nerve to tell his math teacher to quit bothering me during the work day with things that pertain to my child. She needs to learn to send a note home or call me in the evening. UGH! I don't like her AT ALL!!!

Wow....it's been a while

I guess I'm not so into the blogging thing that I even miss it. I haven't even looked at my blog in over 2 weeks. We have been so busy with the kids lacrosse, my work and school and general obligations. I am so thankful that I dropped my Geology class. It has given me so much more time to devote to my other 2 classes and I am doing well in both. I got a great letter in the mail from the college on Monday saying that I have been awarded a $500 scholarship!!! Yeah! I love free money!

My job is going really great. I tend to get very emotionally involved with the kids because for so many of them, you're the only adult who pays attention to them all day. One little boy was wearing the same 3 shirts over and over so I cleaned out my boys closet and sent them home with him through his teacher. He came up to me the other day and said, "Look at my new jacket!" and it felt good knowing that he didn't know it was from me. There's alot of stuff like that on a daily basis that just breaks your heart but I guess I just have to get used to it if I'm going to be a teacher. My mom has been teaching for a while and told me the other day, "I used to be just like you when I first started teaching. I promise you, it gets old. You get tired of spending your own money and never seeing any change in the child's life". I hope I never feel like that. The way that I look at it, if you give a child a moment of your care, time, or money you never know how that may impact them in the long run. You may never see the results of it and it really doesn't matter if you do or not, it's just that you showed the child that they mattered. Maybe I'm being idealistic but....